Hello everyone, It's me, Hermana Samantha Smith. I decided I should top off this mission blog with a post-mission entry. It's been an amazing 18 months. I can't believe it's already over. It's a strange thing being an RM. Part of me feels like I never stepped foot in Vegas - like I just woke up from the best dream I've ever had. Fortunately, it was not a dream - it was reality.
I was reading a post someone put on Facebook the other day and she mentioned her decision to put her life on hold for 18 months to serve the Lord. It was a lovely status in its entirety, but I have to disagree with that one statement. When someone makes the choice to serve a mission full time, they're not putting their life on hold. There is no pause button for your life. Every step you take or decision you make is a part of YOUR life. In the mission field I learned so many things I don't think I ever would have had I not served a mission. I met several different people on a daily basis who were all fighting their own unique battles. Some were better at hiding them than others. I wasn't always able to relate to them, but I knew the Lord could. It is a remarkable privilege to be able to stand in His place and testify of His power. On my mission I learned what it truly means to love another person and just how many different types of love there are. It's a very complex emotion! Before my mission I never knew it was possible to love so many people at one time. There were times where I could not settle down at night because of how full I felt inside. Often times I had to work in order to develop that love. It doesn't always come naturally because unfortunately, the natural man in us tends to initially turn inward. Faith without works (and a desire) is dead. These are only a few of the many things I learned on my mission that have changes MY life.
No missionary should go into the field thinking they're putting their life on hold to serve others. No missionary should ever think their testimony is already as strong as it's going to get - that they've already learned all they need to know. A mission is a very real and humbling experience. Yes, we are there to think less of ourselves and more of others. We are supposed to forget ourselves and go to work. However, in doing so, the missionary also changes. There is always more to learn and space to grow. I believe our Heavenly Father expects us to go home a changed person - more Christlike. The blessings of missionary work do not solely effect those being served, but it changes the individual serving as well. In fact, we can only experience these changes when we practice putting ourselves in the Lord's shoes, which is the whole point of our mortal existence.
To every missionary, the day will come when you must return to the part of your life outside the mission field. What you will see is that your life was never put on hold. The pause button never worked. The people and circumstances you left behind did not stop moving in wait for your glorious return. Things will be different. You will have to adapt and realize that you are not the same person and that the past year and a half to two years of your life was in fact the most real and important time of YOUR life. More important than whatever else you could have been doing in that time frame.
I feel like the same person I was before I left, but that light of Christ inside me has grown. I have more peace. I feel more joy, regardless of my faults or the imperfections that surround me. I'm stronger spiritually. Much stronger.
I loved being able to see those changes in my fellow missionaries as well. The last week in my mission, I went to a Missionary Leadership Counsel... it's a meeting for all the Zone Leaders, Sister Training Leaders and sometimes District Leaders. There were some elders and sisters there that throughout my mission I had had the privilege of serving beside. They seemed so much happier, though. There was a glow about them and I was so grateful to be able to see those changes in them before ending this very important chapter in my life. I remember one elder in particular spoke to me very briefly after the meeting about how much he had changed. apparently his mother even took notice of it from his emails. That to me is just amazing.
I love this gospel and I love my Savior. I know that if we do all we can, He will provide the rest. It is through him that we can accomplish these changes in our lives - in our natures. Not only can we receive forgiveness and become better, but we can be assured that Christ understands the difficulty of our trials. He has felt them and he can comfort us. He hasn't just suffered our sins, but also our pains, sicknesses, heartbreaks and shortcomings that we can't always control as mortals. He has been very merciful to me in my life. I'm so grateful to Him for that. Through all He's done for me I understand more fully the love my Heavenly Father has for me as well. They're on the same team and both just want us to follow them - to trust them..because they want us to come back. Moses chapter 7 blows my mind and on my mission really helped me see the true nature of God and Jesus Christ. They root for us everyday and hope that we will choose them.
I want to thank anyone who might be reading this for your support and in being instruments in the Lord's hands in lifting me up when I needed a boost and helping me be able to serve a mission. Your examples mean the world to me.
Con mucho amor,
Hermana Samantha Smith
Hermana Samantha Ann Smith
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
July 28, 2014
We still talk with Gustavo over phone. Myra's doing great as well. She tells us some days she feels totally ready for baptism and other days she feels a little nervous. We advised her to hold on to the good feelings, because those are from the Holy Ghost. She was supposed to go to the singles ward yesterday, but I guess something came up and she told those sister missionaries that she couldn't...we have a lesson with her tomorrow, though, so we can find out more then. We also picked up a former investigator named Rafael. Do you remember Rafael? He had a baptismal date while sister Hill and I were teaching him, but didn't come to church enough times before his date and started smoking again and said he needed time to be 100% positive this is something he wanted. Yep, that Rafael. Well, we stopped by in the beginning of the week and he told us he was 100% sure now and decided that baptism into our church is what he wanted. He told us it was a sign from God that we came by and that he would be in church every Sunday for all 3 hours (which he never was that committed to before.) So, we set him with a baptismal date for Aug. 16th along with Myra. He came to church yesterday and stayed all 3 hours for the first time. He is ready to change his life.
We've also been getting a LOT of referrals lately, which is rare for Alta Vista...well, with what we're used to anyway. Our area may have died last week, but it must have just been to make way for it to be built up again with a whole new teaching pool. Haha. Monday, July 21, 2014
July 21, 2014
This week, sad to say, was not the best. Myra is still awesome and ready to be baptized on the 16th of August. She told us she prayed about her date and felt butterflies in her chest. SPIRIT! She wants to go to the singles ward, though. Gustavo...well, that's kind of a heart breaking situation. He's in Colorado right now and homeless. This past week we called him and he said his sister and brother in law got upset with him and suggested he leave the house. So he told us he was going to Colorado. The next day he met us at the chapel after district meeting to say goodbye and he was very emotional about it. He kept touching his heart and saying, 'it's always in my heart' and even gave us a gift. A whole bunch of face wash products. He told us he would continue working hard at going forward with what we've taught him. He also gave us his business card so we could keep in touch and we told him we'd send missionaries to him when he settled down. He gave us a hug before he left (what can you do) and took off. We've been texting him on and off and we're really worried about him. President Pecjak called the bishop of the spanish ward where Gustavo is right now in Colorado, so we hope he'll get some help soon and find the church out there. Gustavo is a really smart man, so this is very unlike him to just take off and be homeless. We pray for him often. Please keep him in your prayers as well. It's been really hard for Sister Hutchinson and I because for whatever reason we had a really cool connection with Gustavo. It's so weird how much you can love people! I never knew so many different types of love existed before my mission. Ay, ay ay...
As for the rest of the week, a lot of people either dropped us or we dropped them...so we basically have to start all over again. Oh, and one of our really awesome recent converts moved back to mexico and her dad went off the deep end and decided he's going to stop going to church for a year so he can do some sketchy stuff to make money and doesn't want to mix the 2 together. Super messed up. We testified/warned him of the importance of keeping the sabbath day holy and how he will be blessed temporally by living it, but he straight up doesn't respect us. Then in gospel principles yesterday the same recent convert asked me what exaltation was and when I explained it to him, he insisted I was wrong and then the whole class looks up the word in the dictionary in their phones and came to the conclusion that exaltation is 'praising and shouting'... okay, whatever... sure, the covenants we make in the temple prepare us for 'praising and shouting' and NOT the highest state of happiness in the celestial kingdom in the presence of God, Jesus Christ and our families for eternity. Whatever. Don't listen to the missionaries who have been through the temple. Anyway, I'll end this on a positive note, I promise...
We are keeping our heads up and maintaining an eternal perspective. These let downs are only building me up and making me stronger. It's just hard when I want to help the branch grow because I love the people here so much, and all these unfortunate things happen. I won't let Satan win, though. I won't give up until my mission ends in 2 weeks...and even then I won't give up. I just won't be involved in the same way I am now. During interviews President Snow talked about being a Preach My Gospel missionary for LIFE. That's what our missions prepare us for. I'm so ready! Well...maybe.
Monday, July 14, 2014
July 14, 2014
Well, anyway, I guess I'll tell you how my week was. Gustavo and Myra both have baptismal dates. Gustavo for the 9th and Myra the 16th. They both came to church yesterday. It was Myra's first time and Gustavo's second time. We had a lesson with Myra after church and taught her the plan of salvation and set her with her baptismal date for the 16th. Gustavo seemed to really love church. One of the talks was all about how to make and keep covenants. He loved that and even participated in gospel principles. WE had a lesson with him on Saturday and talked about how to overcome the natural man. We shared Mosiah 3:13 with him. He really wants to change and he talks all the time about how it is a process that includes changing your habits and developing new, more positive ones. Whenever we ask him about the book of mormon he wont tell us straight out that he knows it's true, but he tells us he's reading it daily because he knows it's important and he's trying to make a habit out of it. We testify all the time of how this gospel can truly bring about that change he wants and how he will notice extra help and hope in his life when he is baptized and receives the gift of the Holy Ghost. He told us some other things that were cool. When we asked if he was going to church again, he tells us, 'of course I am! It's important! It's a priority.' In that talk about covenants yesterday, the guy mentioned how important the sacrament is and Gustavo afterwards seemed very determined to come every Sunday. Because he's so focused on habits and consistency and he has that drive to change, I think he'll stay solid. He also told us that our presence is very powerful and it brings peace and happiness. It's a mountain of a difference, he said. Of course we gave all the credit to the spirit. He's a very smart dude. He gave us a whole bunch of health advice and told us all of these interesting things about how the mind works. He's the kind of person who if he's not at home reading a book or pondering about something or looking for work somewhere, he's at the library filling his brain with more knowledge. Haha. He has his own little schedule, too. He liked hearing about how we organize our day because he likes to do that to keep his mind focused on positive things. It's all about good habits! He even walks around with ear buds in his ears listening to inspirational speeches by famous psychologists. This helps him with depression.
As for Myra, she's just a cute 20 year old girl who's going to be the pioneer in her family. Her big thing is guidance. She just wants guidance in her life. When we invited her to be baptized, she told us her only worry was making such a big commitment and then falling away or not being as faithful to that covenant. She doesn't want that to happen because as she says, Jesus is someone you do NOT want to disappointed. I've got to agree with her there. I think church was very different from what she expected, especially because they talked all about the second coming in the 2nd class, but when we explained the plan of salvation, it answered a lot of her questions. She accepted the 16th right away. Monday, July 7, 2014
July 7, 2014...4 more weeks
Howdy hey! So far it has been a blessed p-day. We went to Nelson this morning with sister Ripplinger and let me tell you....that place is impressive! We had a mine tour and it was the coolest thing ever. The couple who owns the place are members of the church and have preserved the whole western town look. It has some really cool history, too. Typical old western town. It happens to be a pretty famous place, too. They've filmed many movies, music videos and TV shows there, among other things. They have some really cool haunted mine stories, too and shows like Ghost hunters and all those scifi/history shows have filmed there. Apparently one of those ghost shows wanted to interview them, but they refused because the production crew wanted to them to lie on air and say they were 'concerned' about the supernatural activity in the mines, which is not true and they don't want the place to be known for its spookiness. Haha. What was really funny is that in the mines, the woman told us to take pictures in the pitch darkness and see if any ghosts pop up, just for fun. Apparently a lot of people have weird things pop up in pictures. It was so cool. These people were even offered their own reality show several times by different people. Super cool people, really good friends of Sister Ripplinger. You've got to meet sister Ripplinger, she knows the most interesting people. Haha, they also have aliens in jars chilling in the gift shop to poke fun at people who think aliens actually roam the mines. The Colorado river is also over there, so we got to see that. I have picture proof!
Over all, this week was pretty good. In the beginning of the week, we had a funny experience with an older woman named Olga. We knocked on her door and she started telling us how she was a christian, blah blah blah... we told her we were, too, but she insisted we tell her who we really were. We kept giving her the full name of the church and then she asked if we were Mormons. We said yes and she just started getting all defensive for no reason...going of on all these random things...'I'm a christian, I'm fine' blah blah...we were just like, 'yeah, that's great, we're not attacking you'. Haha. Then out of no where she tells us this story about how she had a really bad accident and was brain dead and then when the doctors put her in a plastic sack, she came back to life. (Sounds like something you'd see in ET or something) So anyway, she explained to us how she was brought back to life to be a messenger for God. She then told us God had a message for us and says, "After this, there are no more second changes...are you ready?" So we said yes and suddenly she gets all weird and closes her eyes and acts as if she's possessed by something and goes, 'I want all of my children to know...that in my kingdom... I will always forgive them... so that they can have a place...in my KINGDOM.' She went off like that for about 4 minutes and we were trying really hard not to laugh. THEN as she ends, she almost passed out. Her eyes roll to the back of her head and she gets all dizzy as if whatever possessed her just fled from her body again. As she's recovering from that, I go to slip one of our cards in her hand as an attempt to make a quick get away while she's half conscious...didn't work. She just went on again about some random stuff. By the end of it she tells us, "I might be brain dead, but I'm not mentally retarded...I'm just slow." Quote of the year. Anyway, that was a first on my mission so I thought I'd share it. Needless to say, we are not currently teaching her. Love you all! See you in like... a few weeks.
Monday, June 30, 2014
June 30, 2014
Life as a STL isn't much different. Haven't gone on exchanges this week, will next week though. I have 6 to do and I already have them planned out throughout the transfer. Trade offs with members...you mean splits? Not lately, no, but I've done them before.
This week was a very interesting one... the weekend sucked up all our proselyting time, but that's okay. 2 weddings and 2 baptisms, what can you do? During the day on Friday Sister R drove us down to searchlight so we could visit our old part member family out there and she could tackle visiting teaching at the same time. We found out that the part member family didn't live there anymore....so sister Ripplinger stopped by the house of some old friends she used to visit when she was in the english ward. We heard all about this less active member who lives out there named C... C is a woman who lives in this little trailer full of cats, cat poop and pee and food and garbage all over the place. Apparently some time ago Sister R and the relief society went down there to help her clean up some stuff....amongst all the cat pee and who knows what else, the sisters decided to clean out the freezer... and there was a dead cat inside. C told them that when it died the ground was too cold to bury it, so they stuck it in the freezer.... 8 months later sister R discovered it in the freezer... We visited a lady named Carol who pretty much has a pet mountain lion. We didn't see it, but she said there is a mountain lion that wonders around searchlight and always sleeps on the roof of her trailer. He stays pretty close by her place and is very protective of her. Then we met a funny woman named Debby who was quite the character. Searchlight's a different place... it has its own little odd charm to it...half the trailers out there are vacant, too. Carol told us that all her neighbors are dead. On the way to Searchlight there is a little road called "Grandpas road" apparently it's a little road in the middle of the desert with 3 or 4 trailers. You can live there for free, though. That is, if you're willing to live there. Funny stuff.HOWEVER, we have a pretty legit investigator named Gustavo. He seems very sincere. A little deep, and so it's sometimes hard to understand him because he goes back and forth on a bunch of different deep thought processes, and so it's hard to follow at times in a different language. It's all good, though. He really wants to be a better man. He told us he struggled with depression before, but his dog helped him through it. He loves his dog. The funny thing about Gustavo is that he's very attractive and we want to set him up with one of the recent coverts in the branch, Karina. She's the sweetest and she should dump her boyfriend and Mexico and come meet Gustavo. Sometimes you have to flirt to convert here on the mission...as long as we're not the ones doing the flirting. That's what MPLs are for. Haha. Just kidding..
Monday, June 23, 2014
June 23, 2014...the last and busiest transfer of her mission
Yes, Sister Pecjak told me on Sunday that she sent you a message. She is super cute. Actually, we were talking on the phone with President Pecjak this morning and she was in the background going, "She's an STL" and he's like, "
oh, I was just informed by my wife that you're an STL. Congratulations!" My companion is still sister Hutchinson and I'm staying, but she's not an STL. Just me. There are certain companionships that are both STLs, but not all of them. They're still working on that, I think. Oh, and guess what? I'm over the largest group of sisters. I have 3 companionships and everyone else has only 2 or 1. That might not seem like a lot, but it's 6 exchanges in 6 weeks... and it's going to suck on miles. I'm in henderson and I cover Montebello and Los Feliz, which are both up by the temple and then El Rancho which is all the way in North Las Vegas. It's interesting because they only have 2 spanish STLs. Sister Webb and myself. She was put back in Desert Bloom and covers Paraiso and Ensign. It should be good, I just really hate giving trainings in front of other missionaries...
Not much happened this week other than that. The Lozano couple is getting baptized on June 28th, this Saturday and our recent convert Carlos is marrying his gf and awesome fellowshipper Diana on Friday....and then one of our interesting on and off investigators who doesn't speak english is getting married to his member "girlfriend" who doesn't speak Spanish and is almost 10 years older than him... they just informed us this morning that they want to get married in her backyard on Saturday in the afternoon.....in 100 degree heat. Interesting. Lots of weddings! Working on the baptisms. We've been finding like crazy, but we're just trying really hard to work on retaining them.
Yes, Hope really is a different person! She doesn't sound shy at all based on the emails she sends me. I'm very proud of her.
Hey, can you let the sisters know that I would LOVE to go on splits with them and that I think they're awesome? Thanks. Also, does Renee still go out with them?
Those dinosaurs are from the dinosaur house. Not a museum. The caveman is just chilling by the door. Haha. No, sister Veazey is not in my zone. Yes, we did go as a district to those things, and yes, the water is even more beautiful in person. :) Our district only has 8 people in it... right now 9 because the other sisters have been in a 3 pack for a while, but that will change tomorrow.
Aunt Erin just told me they'll be in Vegas during the first week of July and want to come to Alta Vista. That would be cool if it happened.
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